sometimes it’s important for me to sit back and enjoy the moment, enjoy the chaos. it really doesn’t do any of us good when i get all upset and go around yelling at you kids. i’m not perfect at this parenting thing. no one is. but i will always try my best to stay calm. i will try harder again tomorrow. i read something recently, it talked about what a big job being a mother really is and all the (really) important life lessons and morals, and things that we are responsible for teaching you. it really hit home with me. i have been feeling a bit overwhelmed. it’s a big job, and i mean big, but i wouldn’t change any of it for anything. please remember that i am doing my best and that i love you beyond anything you can imagine. and please forgive me if i get too upset. i love you three with all my heart.